yesterday christina and i met up and walked home from work together and it was delightful ! having someone to talk to made the walk go by a lot faster. i mean, it's like... a 15 minute walk, but it's a boring one with very little to look at now that those men's underwear that were stuck on the powerlines are gone. the urge to nap after work is incredibly strong since i got into that shitty pattern of napping after work and staying up super late, but i resisted- unfortunately i'm still staying up super late though ! i was like, basically catatonic after work because i was so tired, but i stayed up and started a new chewbacca since i got my dk yarn from knit picks.
doesn't it look like bigfoot's ghost right now? its eyes plaintively staring at me was a total mindfuck, too !
i know it's boring when people talk about what they eat but to work on ED stuff i'm trying to generally eat the same exact things at every meal, because it's much easier for me to control what i'm eating with a routine than when i try to be spontaneous or, you know, enjoy food. i have a feeling that i won't be able to enjoy food for like 10 years, or ever? anyway, i've been eating:
- fruit (pears !)
- quorn patty (or veggie burger) on a wheat roll with spinach/artichoke cream cheese
- baby carrots
- red beans and rice and peas
- soup with spinach and pasta and white beans and olive oil
- some kind of fake meat thing, sweet potatoes, and a vegetable
when i write that out, it doesn't really sound like a lot of food, but i tend to eat larger meals at dinner time (and i've had trouble sticking to the dinner options this week) because that's kind of the uh, danger zone for me as far as disordered eating. anyway, the point of me telling you all that is that i deviated from my usual dannon all natural vanilla
and instead got stonyfield organic french vanilla
i really love greek yogurt texture (but never the taste? i'm american, i want really sweet yogurt, spiro) so i um... usually leave my tubs of yogurt sitting out for a night so most of the whey separates out and the yogurt gets thick. but this stonyfield yogurt is totally weird and every morning when i open the container there's like two inches of whey on top and the texture now is basically like noxema? it's really weird and tomorrow's breakfast is going to be grim !
i did just remember that i have an ice cream maker though:
so i think this weekend i'm going to get stuff to make dark chocolate cherry froyo for me and christina.
i really truly have nothing to talk about. now that i'm not napping i don't even have cool night sweats and stuff to write about !
p.s. i'm kind of busy at work today and it blows