oooo-ooooh BLACK DIAMOND (replacements version)

i'm not kidding, guys- school has been the busiest ever the past couple of weeks ! between school work and work work (plus... not doing any school work over the weekend last weekend) the past week has been oppressively brutal. but on the plus side, you really haven't missed anything besides me reading books.

last night was genocide class, which was great as always. we talked about the armenian genocide and watched voices from the lake. there are a lot of totally brilliant people in my class but it sort of bugs me how some of them (even the brilliant ones !) kind of like, fuck off on their laptops and laugh at stuff when we're watching movies about... actual people being slaughtered? kids these days. i love it though, aside from that, and i can't say that there's one person who doesn't contribute positively to the discussion (though the guy who is studying religion and obviously sort of hates muslims is pushing it sometimes).


to avoid posting more grim genocide pictures, here is a turkish van, a cat who is from around lake van in turkey, where the armenians used to hang out

so... i'm excited about genocide. i'd love to study it FOR REAL once i'm ready (like, once i learn how to actually go to school). i'm kind of bummed that i took this class so early in my career because i feel like i'm not really able to engage fully or express my opinions in an intelligent way. every paper i've gotten back has been an A+ with really encouraging notes, but while i'm writing them i feel like a total clueless idiotic idiot. i guess i've been talking about it a lot lately, though, because my coworker printed out an article for me about ratko mladic.


f u ratko

i have to write two research paper proposals this weekend, which means i finally have to read this asinine book for one class and check out a bunch of articles my friend anna (a genocide scholar ! and like, an infinitely valuable resource to me as i'm exploring my interest in genocide) suggested to me and skim a few books (gendercide and genocide by adam jones and gendercide by mary anne warren), plusssss do my regular reading for genocide class and write my response paper for it.

right now everyone is trying to hang out with me this weekend, which is like... a really wonderful problem to have, but i might have to break everyone's hearts and hole up and read/write for most of the weekend.


some other notable heartbreakers

what else? oh, i figured out that i like lattes. i figured this out on our road trip when we stopped at a dunkin donuts of all places and i had what i now realize was a really disgusting latte, but without the context this week has provided, it seemed great. now i've had one every day of this week and have been somber cornholio with loose stools for days.



on that note, i think i'm going to switch to soy lattes next week.

i bought a large H bag from brooklyn industries just now because i need a big bag that fits my laptop and some school books (also i had a $40 GROUPON), but some evidence (testimony of camille cruz) suggests that my laptop may not fit in it.



i'm sorry that all my problems are so fucking stupid privileged. my expensive laptop won't fit in this expensive bag ! i have too many friends ! my completely free college education is stressful !!!!!

what else am i gonna do this weekend? knit baby stuff for helen's baby (i've BARELY had a chance to do this), clean my apartment this weekend (it is horrifying me and stressing me out), go grocery shopping. spend a lot of time actually studying at green line (cause all my stuff at my house is too cool).

okay, i have a bunch of work to do at work right now so i'll TTYL LYLAS.

i've made a huge mistake

mannnnnn. i've been hemming and hawing about getting a new laptop for school and yesterday i impulsively decided to go get one, and i made a terrible choice. i used a friend's macbook pro and loved it, and mistakenly thought she had a 17". THEN, on the table at the store, there were two sizes of macbooks which i thought were the 15" and 17", and the 17" one looked perfect for my needs, so i got the 17" one. wellllll it turns out i'm very stupid and there is actually a 13" macbook and the two i saw were 13" and 15" and the laptop i got is fucking gigantic. i don't mean to complain and have like, the brattiest most privileged problems ever- it was just a stupid mistake on my part and now i'm stuck with a very expensive laptop that isn't actually convenient for my needs.



it was only $100 more than the one i MEANT to get, and wow will look great on it, and it's really beautiful and will be great for watching movies and whatever, but it's just like... not practical. i like to bring my laptop on vacation with me or bring it places outside my room (away from all my cool stuff) to do work or bring it to friend's houses and sit in silence while we're both on our laptops and i don't even think i have a bag big enough to fit this thing. blehhh.

i know this is the stupidest problem ever and it's my own fault for not understanding how measurement works so i don't blame you for not having sympathy.



i didn't end up doing much last night. i watched the phillies game (9 run 7th inning?) and i intended to clean my room but what i ended up doing was laying on my bed watching youtube videos for like three hours instead of cleaning my room. you'll be happy to know that the gin blossoms music has held up, and that i now know how to crank that (courtesy of soulja boy).

big plans for the weekend: doing nothing, knitting, reading, setting up my new laptop, having adventures with mouse? christina invited me to go to the south philly taproom with her and amber tonight. i obviously love christina and i haven't seen amber in YEARS and i love her too, but i'm pretty wiped out and socially exhausted right now. maybe i'll be brave. the south philly taproom used to serve lion meat



they also have stuff like wild boar and bear bacon (which isn't exciting to me because i'm a florida redneck). i wonder what the vegetarian options are? mandrake root tacos !!!



vegan dodo eggs.

so, yeah. buyer's remorse, exciting weekend with mouse, exciting evening with christina and amber?, boring weekend holing up in my room reading about the civil war and watching survivorman.